Heavy Air

All right. That's it. The end of the rope? It's in my hand.

The not sleeping thing has continued. The last three nights running, I have been awake, and awake, and awake, and have finally fallen asleep at four, only to wake up at 6:30. Tuesday was okay, yesterday was bearable, but today is just not happening. I'm at that state of tiredness where blinking is exhausting, and the very air seems to weigh you down.

I did get Dave to dictate the instructions for making coffee and kind of made coffee this morning, though it was not nearly strong enough and I spilled it some, but at least it was something. As is the green tea I'm drinking now. But I don't want to overdo it with the caffeine, you know? Because if I lay off the caffeine maybe I'll sleep tonight. Maybe? Please?

Oh God.